
Suria Sparks
A Date with my Subconscious Mind
Yesterday I had the Best dating experience
It was a Union of my soul
Marriage of lifetimes
Sacred meeting that gives height to the Highest level of ecstacy Nirvana
I had a date with my Subconscious Mind ...
The Knowing and Longing that Sparks a new beginning to continue the journey within
Today I start a new day.
A new beginning
A new chapter
A reset
Renovation of myself to Get to the Depth of my Soul
To Let Go of old stories
Old characters who have been haunting me
Old memories that had traumatized me
Old incidents that had scarred me to lose trust on trusting
Release expectations of how a human should be where what they did had disappointed me or let me down
Acknowledge the pain, scars, hurt from all forms of betrayals, abuse, torture, unfairness, evil, inhumane abuse, cheatings, backstabbings, cruelty, words, actions of all sorts from all shades of human shadows & darkness
The day I stop my unconscious behaviour of drinking and sipping poison daily expecting the ones who handed me the poison to die
My soul had made a promise to itself to come to this world to experience the depths and breath and polarities of being human, To learn lessons to Love despite the Hate, To Be Grateful despite the Disappointments, To be Appreciative despite the Downfalls, To Breakthrough Amidst the Breakdowns, To Turn Pain to Power, To Turn Mess to Message, ToDevelop Strength from Weakness, To Surrender in IronClad of Control, To Brave Through Fear, To Rise from Burnt Ashes to Phoenix, ToAllow Seeds of Well Meaning Intentions to Grow, To Remember the Wordly experience is but a play of Illusions and what is Real is the Source of it All
Source a Space of Stillness
Of Nothingness
Of Absolute Power
Of Sovereignty
Of No Beginning nor End
Of No Creation nor Destruction
Of Everything Expressed Yet Nothing Ever Imagined or Seen is It
There is No Other Power but It
To It I come, to It I Return
There is Only It
It is Everything
Owner of this Soul merged with an Ego Identity that Insists on Denying It's Existence, that on separation of itself and everything it is is Hell, Union of Everything is Heavenly Bliss, Acknowledging the Power so Be it Shall Be
The Power to FLY
To Love oneself is to Know oneself
To Know oneself is to Learn Discover and Understand the Various Parts of Self
To Learn there is the
Physical Body and it's Systems, Organs & Cells
There is an Emotional Body, of Senses, Feelings Emotions of Varying Depths Degree like Shadows of Varying Shades
There is a Thinking Body, of Mind Intellect, Thoughts, derived from memory, what is learnt, conditioned, repeated, imbedded from the one who beats this self in womb, raises the self, known as parents, the people that ecosystem around known as siblings family relatives,
the systems surrounding the self, the neighbourhood, area, city, country and everything that influences it the institution called school , the people in that instituition, the governing officials,policy makers, curriculum developers, principal teachers students, Culture, Religion & Faith, Belief Systems, common practices, rules, rights and wrongs DOs and DONTs,
All of the above taught conditioned rooted programmed from before born to the day the self is born raised amongst that person, family, culture, society, beliefs
Who self is now made up of all of that mix in varying levels of influence depending on the strength of it's imprint within the subset of each factors
For some in a family, the mother influences more than the father or the siblings or the relatives
For some the school influences more
For some the neighbourhood influences more
For some the country and it's politics influences more
For some Religion and it's doctrines influences more
For some tragedy, war, plague, disaster, political climate, religious domination, crime, internal tragedy, death, rape, incest, molest, sexual, physical, verbal , mental abuse, domestic violence, alcohol, drug, substance abuse, TV, Games, Computer, Mobile technology, Apps influences more
So who is a self but a mix of all of the above in varying degrees ....
All of the above is saved in the Subconscious mind and has become an auto pattern, auto behaviour one that is done repeatedly without questioning, various behaviours that are expressed due to the conditioned and programmed mind
Who is self?
A soul trapped in this cage walls prisons of everything it has been born and raised to believe as
True
The self is defined now by an ego, a mind, thoughts, beliefs, behaviours patterns identities roles set to stubbornly insist that the only way to be is what has been programmed to be
Soul is hidden underneath all of these programmed identities
Mind Thoughts
Body Foods
Ego Identities
Religion is then just a belief of what someone or a group of someone has said or told or programmed or trained you about God
Spirituality is then a journey of experiencing God
Who is self Minus all of these Programmed in Memory Thoughts, Systems, Beliefs, Identities?
The Detachment Discovery begins .....
Not many walk this road less travelled
Journey most often initiated by Conflicts, Crisis and Pain
Sparked by a Question
Who am I?
Why am I here?
Where do I come from?
Where am I going?
Minus everything that has been programmed or taught, the deep quest to know a deeper answer beyond the veils of programmed knowledge based on the bias of memory & it's co factors
The courage to Ask to Question is the beginning of it all
It begins with a Question
To stand up and desire to walk out of this enclosed prison, this wall, this box
To realise the door to this cage prison is unlocked ...
The courage to push that door and step out to seek to FLY
Which is why in many or those subsets of culture, beliefs, systems Fear is instilled to prevent one from ever asking
Do NOT question beyond this point or else _________
Politics and Religion used as Key Instruments to instil fear so one shall never embark on that Journey
The Dumbing down begins
Self is know lived based on what is set of Values Systems Dished in a plate
The Journey begins when one questions pushed to the edge of madness and insanity of not understanding the twisted plots of life
Crisis conflicts Pain
Further dumbed down by labels of depression of mental health, numbed by a cocktail of prescription drugs to further make the self docile and pause or stop from this pursuit
Pain Conflict Challenges self to dig deeper
To begin the process of detachment
Is to acknowledge the pain for what it is
Not defined by labels : You feel this way so you are a psychotic, you are this so you are bipolar etc etc
Labels are just that labels
What it is is what it is
Pain is Pain
Thoughts are Thoughts
Emotions are Emotions
It is what it is
Acknowledging Pain Thoughts Emotions for what it is
Is the 1st step of discovering the self
Ah so this is me
I have thoughts, feelings, emotions
I am not crazy
I am OK being Not Ok
I am not judged for feeling, thinking this or that way
Its like opening the mind allowing it to vomit it's train of thoughts and then flush it, it's gone just another dump of thoughts
It's like opening the emotional box and expressing it for what it is, tears, voice of expression, of pain, grief, sorrow, frustrations, anger, hatred, every pain named or unnamed in all shades of it's pain, allowing it to express itself for what it is : the buffet of pain
It is what it is
Labelling it yet not judging it
Not being wronged or faulted or deemed crazy or emotional for experiencing it
That after it all
It is OK for not feeling or being ok
So the Journey begins
To Know and Discover Self
To be Continued in the Book ....
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